September - December 2024

I think most of us can relate to the feeling of deeply wanting something to happen, to pop irreversibly: To pop that very intimate membrane around our deepest fear, tucked away inside our steaming damp gut. That place, as scary and unknown as death itself, there, right there is where I want to be.

November 2023 - May 2024

On his deathbed, just shy of three years after my mother passed, my father refused to see me. My sister said he did not want me to come over. She said he was screaming in pain, given morphine to ease his suffering.

May 2023 - June 2023
… And so we have arrived, from Costa Rica, with the Infinity sailing ship in Mexico, Baja California, welcomed by whales and yet more dolphins, after a month on open sea: The Pacific Ocean.The Ocean is the Ancester and Mother of all life on Earth. She is stunning, raw, wild, lethal, medicinal and fragile…really very fragile…

March 2023 - April 2023
I would like to share here some limited thoughts on wound cycles, ancestral trauma and the power of illusion. Is it truth? I don’t know, partially true for sure…

February 2023 - March 2023

The more I open and turn towards life itself, in direct contact, medicinal, Prior, the more I understand the purpose of human life as a treatment in itself. It does not feel like a seeking anymore for answers or for liberation in life like people used to seek before or still do, but really more as a treatment.

April 2022 - July 2022
I finished a first cycle of Dietas with the five leading Doctor Plant Spirits within the Shipibo Mahua-Lopez lineage and tradition: Noya Rao, Marusa, Bobinsana, Mokapari and Chullachaqui (9 dietas in total) and close this first round of my apprenticeship as Curandero guided by Maestro Rono Lopez.

Dec 2021- Jan 2021

Some people got raised by Wolves.
I got raised by Sacred Plants and Master Trees.
Raised into the magic of a human being, an adult mature human male expressed by Conscious Light, our True Condition. Reality Itself. Always Already the Case. The Seventh Stage of Life. Self-Radiant

June 20 - July 10 2021

Every Life journey of Awakening, Human and Spiritual growth, there comes a point where you break into a deeper layer through the thick ice of ignorance on which you have been figure skating believing you have seen the light and are well established within it. 

February 9 1943 - May 6 2021

Out and about, planetary, galactic, blasting your past and your future into the pieces of the present moment, that hot, sweet, exciting, so so pure and loud present moment, without time, with all the time in the world, all the time before to stop one day and visit your parents.

March 20 - April 10 2021
Lying on my back in my jungle hut after weeks of fasting during dieta with the Noya Rao tree, Ayahuasca ceremonies, hardly any food, just water and praying, sopla-ing with my pipe when hungry.The rain is falling in the rainforest. Everything is featherlight, the whole body is light as a feather.

July 17 - September 3 2020
After several years of re-awakening, extensive travel and study and practice, I happily share my new website today: www.thatwhatis.com
All that I learned, un-learned and integrated is neatly poured and packed into an evolving online yoga, meditation, plant medicine, travel and awakening coaching platform.

March 17 - July 16 2020
Grace comes. It does come to you when you drop all desires of wanting or insisting anything to be different than it already is. The gates of Heaven, Earth and Heart open when you are ready to leave everything behind that is not Love. When you let go all you made up out of ignorance, anger, pride and fear of others, the world and yourself.

March 16 - April 16 2020
Fall has come to the southern hemisphere, as Peru is just under the equator. I am in Pisac, in the Sacred Valley, Valle Sagrado, in the Andean Highlands, in the heart of the Inka Empire. This place radiates with Bliss. The weather has been changing, the rains are over and the beautiful sunny dry fall/winter season has come to the green hills and terrasses.

February 2020
Staying with Shaman Don Luis and his family, friends and co-dieters in the Amazonian jungle in Peru for a full month Ayahuasca dieta - hosted by Gaston and Lucille - has been the most beautiful and the most terrifying space-time I have ever been within.

January 2020
Doing a silent meditation retreat is fairly easy, one two or three yoga ttc is also easy, travelling through Guatemala with a colourful group of 15 beautiful individuals with a defined separate sense of self is a challenge of life as it is ... also.

November - December 2019
What happens when a Romanian yoga master decides to open a non-duality hatha yoga and meditation centre in a sleepy Mexican paradise beach village ? ... you get a most precious, caring and humble community and sangha of LOVE, unconditional love from the heart, in the heart as the heart.

November 2019
Shot by my best friend and blood brother Willæm Mårkarian-Martín on an afternoon on Coney Island beach.❤️.

October - November 2019
Fall, rain and mist have come also to the mountains of Portugal and time is not standing still it is creeping silently through the days, like bramble, like a smiling snake, through every crack in the rocks, around the house. Our house. Mushrooms, salamanders, mantises feast on crickets …

September - October 2019
Merkaba Community, off-grid eco-retreat centre in Portugal, is one of those rare places where sand, mountain, plant, sky, star, animal, angel and human remain wild and have no name other than their own sound and perfume.

September 2019. 
Awakened Life Project. Portugal. 
Yes I have surrendered to allow life to be me..., us..., that... This is going beyond a “spiritual life”, “spiritual seeking”, “yogic path” or “being spiritual”, this is about life as it is, always already is, beyond anything that can be named nor desired.