Ancestral Trauma or the Power of Illusion. Costa Rica.
I would like to share here some limited thoughts on wound cycles, ancestral trauma and the power of illusion. Is it truth? I don’t know, partially true for sure…
When we are a child and all is believed and expected to revolve around us, we make the most important decisions in our life. Declarations based on traumatic impact: creating wound cycle dynamics.
We make these declarations at a time we are unable to fully understand the context in which we make these decisions. This context is a situation we experience as unsafe AND this context is the momentum of accumulated trauma that is passed down through generations within the family line that actually creates this context’s impact.
Somewhere way up the line it started, a very long time ago, someone got hurt inside, got wounded, not knowing, grew up, later found a mate, also wounded, also not knowing. They have children and started acting out this patterns on their offspring. These wound patterns then got copied into the offspring and new ones were created within the offspring’s own life. The offspring comes already with two wound cycle sets from father and mother and then during the life of the offspring more wounds are created. Either through parental trauma impacts growing up, but also external factors hunting, gathering, family, siblings, school, work, accidents, peers, social media etc. And so it accumulates. Whatever does not get resolved stays and accumulates into reverse “toxic” energy. Contracting more and more, but also attracting more and more.
Now this mature offspring finds a (wounded) partner and they have also offspring of their own. This goes on and on and on through generations and generations. Exponentially it grows: generational x personal/local. This very complex web of bloodlines that all flood into and through each other keep on accumulating and resolving and this is what we are experiencing now in the collective. It crumbles under the toxic weight It is a huge and complex web of multiple energies, beliefs, contractions and expansions mud sliding down the family lines. This is something that seems to finally find its awareness into the collective consciousness today. We are becoming aware of this process and we are developing many modalities to clear these energies in all kinds of fields: yoga, meditation, breath work, somatics, inquiry, NLP… Shining a bright light on human development and shifting deeply the course of action and letting this momentum run its course through the collective and personal healing on a global scale. This is a very interesting moment in human history we are witnessing right now as we are finally shifting out of patterns of all sorts allowing us to grow into higher layers of Consciousness within the spectrum.
Now here are a few details, fragments, I believe have come to understand recently integrating my last dieta with Jose Lopez. I have come to a point where I just know how little I know. Anyhow here they are:
> What makes it so hard to resolve or transcend the trauma or wound cycle - even when you deeply understand it and even locate it in your psychosomatic timeline, system or past?
It is the MOMENTUM it has gained over these many generations. The momentum makes it so hard to transcend it. Yes of course repetition of cycles also but on a wider scale in time I see it as momentum. That is why cycles and patterns stick and come back again, even after they have been revealed, seen and felt through several times over. The momentum of the accumulation makes it elastic or persistent and stored within the body-mind complex. Generational Trauma is not a finite set of local cycles from within your childhood only, but more of a fractal ancestral avalanche crashing in your backyard. You can shovel away as much as you can, but then the avalanche keeps on sliding down back in the yard from up the hill. So you shovel some more and it slides down again and so on until it has run its course. Until it has fully run its course, if ever, you better learn to dance with it and recognize it is so that it does not fry your nervous system when you resist it through compensation or collapsing.
Deep ancestral trauma, karma and belief patterns run down many blood lines into you dynamically, fractal. It is a complex fascinating nest of accumulated energies: your previous lives and their many trauma events , your bloodline’s bloodline, you mom’s moms and their moms and their moms, your dad the same and their dads, his previous lives, your mom’s previous lives, your grandma’s previous lives, her dad’s previous lives etc etc. It keeps spreading out all over… It is a mind boggling view of lives into deep space and time, flowing into you…
I invite you to just feel into it and observe your life from that vantage point and see how this shifts your perspective. Imagine you stand tall in this flow coming in from all sides and feel how you transcend and rise through this releasing your ancestral load.
> the second detail I want to mention is as fundamental and I will try to picture this the best way I can: any wound cycle is ultimately a LIE.
It is an illusion. Whatever you loop on, whatever self referential limiting belief you cycle and repeat- personal or ancestral - is fundamentally not true and never has been. The original impact may be real, the wound’s content or declaration is false. Now because it is false no compensation can patch it. Whatever you do you as compensation or collapsing to ease the wound cycle wont work. Any destructive or addictive pattern to patch the need not met at the root of the wound cycle does not nor will it work ever. Why? Because you feed an illusion. This the reverse paradox. You cannot feed an illusion you believe to be real and make it change. You believe you are “not good enough”? You believe you are “not lovable”? You believe you are “not important”? Any attempt to patch this declaration won’t work: money, romance, food, drinks, fashion, make up, drugs won’t work. But also not yoga, any seeking-based kind of spirituality, retreats, rituals won’t work from that perspective. You can perform them all and you still feel miserable. Why? Because none of those declarations are ultimately true, they are an illusion. You cannot patch them because they not true in the first place. No-one is not not lovable, no-one is not not important, no-one is not not good enough, no-one is not not something. We are all lovable, important and good enough! So what ever you do to reverse an illusion it will just not work.
Illusions cannot be satisfied ever because they are not real but believed to be true. Instead of feeding these illusion we rather starve them, pierce them or transcend them from the inside.
Wound cycles are psychophysical (k)nots based on a declaration made when we were not able to understand the context in which we created the declaration AND many wound cycles are ancestral accumulated patterns flowing down the generational hill into the yard of your birth and separate self.
I invite you to spend some time in each deep seated belief about yourself, spend time some, explore all corners of it and truly ask yourself if this true? If it has ever been true? What ever it is pierce it through action!
As long as the root declaration, the root-knot isn’t released: “I am not Universe”, we keep suffering and feeding wound cycles, because they are never true. Only within the separation and contraction of the separate self they are locally perceived to be real, not in Reality Itself, your Prior condition. By piercing the root (k)not, by directly realizing: “I am Universe”, you can unzip the MOMENTUM and decondition the LIE.
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